Happy One Month MIGS!

warning: this post is nothing about fashion, is kinda lengthy and cheesy. if you're not up for it, you can close the window now. i won't mind. :)

Hey Miguel! So, you’re one month old now. I am writing this while you are sleeping but anytime soon, i know you’ll be awake.

I just want you to know that i am so happy to have you. You make me feel complete as a person. I thought being pregnant would complete me as a woman, but being able to give birth to you, has made me more than complete. Fulfilled. The pain i had bringing you here is all worth it. This may be a cliche, as every single mother i know has told me this, as i heard you shouting the moment you came out of me, the pain is all forgotten.

Everytime you stop crying when i feed you, or everytime you smile (i know you still don’t mean it) makes me the happiest person in this world. I AM A MOTHER. I never thought that i can love this MUCH. Or be patient this MUCH. It’s been a month that i have not gotten enough sleep but you are like an award for everything good i have done in my 22 years of existence. No amount of money, shoes (yes, mommy loves shoes!) or sleep can ever replace the feeling of contentment you give me everyday. You are the reason why i am still alive. The feeling of completeness makes me sometimes thing i could die now, but i choose not to because i know you still need me. And deep inside me hopes you will need me longer than forever, if there's such a thing. As each day goes by, i notice how fast you grow, how you can now hold your head up alone, or how you can now slowly hold your bottle by yourself. I am so afraid of the day that you will be a grown-up and start to have a family of your own. I know it’s still too early to think about this, but the last month have been so fast that i didn’t even recognize it gone by. As i look at you while you so peacefully sleep, i wish that time would freeze and you stay this small forever. So that you would always need mommy by your side or i could always kiss you when i want.

When you’re older and read this, i hope you would not be embarrassed and think that i am crazy for documenting every single thing about you. I wished my mom did this as i was a baby. I have no memories whatsoever from my childhood. It would have been funny knowing what i did when i was one month old. You for example, open your mouth before sleeping and then smile. I don’t know if you’re imagining yourself drinking milk and smile because it is so damn good (hihi)? But everytime you do this, me and daddy cannot help but smile too. You look so satisfied and seeing this makes us proud parents. You curl up like a ball after waking up and you don't suck your thumb, you suck your whole hand.

Satisfaction and contentment is all what i can give you now, so you can imagine how fulfilled i am knowing that you are satisfied and contented. But it’s not always that easy though, there are days when you cry more. It makes me sad that i cannot read your mind and see what you need. It pains me when i cannot stop you from crying when other people can. I would give the whole world just to see you happy. There are days when i want to give up, not because i hate you but because sometimes i am soo tired that i think i cannot give you enough. But giving birth to you was the hardest yet best time of my life that i know, and i am sure of, anything harder than that doesn’t exist.

I could only wish that the next months would not go so fast like the last one. I am not yet ready to share you with the rest of the world. For now, you are my little baby and i am happy to be with you 24 hours a day. For now i am everything you need to survive. For now i am the only person you can run to when you cry. But keep in mind, i will always be here for you, for now, and forever. I LOVE YOU MY SON. Happy first month!

Mommy's cheesy, huh?


  1. oh my god...i'm definetely touched...a big kiss to you and you "growing" family... :.)

  2. This post made me cry (in a totally good way)
    I cannot truly express how happy I am for you.

    Give Miguel a cuddle from me, please =)

  3. wow! that's not cheesy (well maybe a bit..) but you are a mommy now!!your baby's such a cutie as i saw on pics you posted before.. don't worry that someone will quit reading your blog cause it would be stupid. clearly you can't focus on fashion in every post, but you are back and keep on doing your blog. i'll stay tuned!
    xoxo sue

  4. oh that's cute !! i think becomin a mother is somethin so emotional is someone's life !! wish u the best !

  5. awwwww happy one month to miguel!! what a fabulous family <3


  6. Happy 1 Month already?? Wow. You are so lucky and happy. I wish you 3 the best! :)

    xo/ fashion chalet

  7. OMG ... this is so sweet, it made me teary eyed...it's not cheezy, it's beautiful :)

  8. Oh this is so cute! I wish my mom had done that too, but instead of documenting what I did in a journal, they took non-stop pictures of me. I swear there are about a thousand pictures of me from age 1 to 4.

    And happy one month to miguel, he's such a cutie!

  9. Hey, das ist extrem süß. Wenn ich einestages Mami werde, werde ich die Idee auf jedenfall übernehmen :). Alles Gute für deine family

  10. NUH UH!!! How adorable
    I am so happy for you, truly you seem to have found such happiness
    don't worry, with the years you'll wish he grows up faster (specifically ages 13-19)
    beautiful scrap book

  11. Nope, that's not cheesy. Valentine's Day is cheesy, but motherly love?

    And Happy One Month to Miguel :)

  12. Oh my god, you made me cry. I'm reading you while cuddling my baby bump and I really think you are very lucky. You have your baby there with you and he is healthy. Hope Bruno will be healthy as well, it is the only thing that worries me now.
    Happy 1 month to Miguel!


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